8:17 p.m. -- 2003-03-24
Entry Number : 141
Now Playing : Keith Urban - Raining on Sundays
Quote for Today : "Friends don't let friends get drunk, and take home ugly men" -- Anonymous
Today I Feel :
You know, I'm not sure of the definition of a friend anymore. I mean really. I've lost the ability to tell my friends from my enemies. That really scares me a lot. I'm not sure why certain people even talk to me. My mind feels like it's being banged with a hammer. Like reality is just now sinking in. Why can't I tell who is "good people" and who is "bad people"? Why can't I make a decision based on someone's character? But that's really hard to do sometimes. I tend to need to see facial expressions and whatnot to determine if someone is sincere or not. I dunno, maybe I just need to stop thinking so much. Yet, I'm forced to think about everything I do to see how it will affect the people I know. That just doesn't seem right to me. Why can I not just be myself and rant on unchecked about anything and everything and not CARE if anyone gets mad about it or not?
Yet, I do care. I care about the way I make people feel. I try my hardest to make everyone around me laugh and smile without giving the slightest regard to my own feelings. I'm just the girl that everyone goes to when they need a laugh. Oh, haha, Ashley is so dumb. Yeah thanks. Lower my intelligence level a little more why don't you.
Bah, I don't know what I'm even talking about anymore. I'm just being a big whiny baby cause isn't that what having a diary is all about?
Anyways, yeah. Hope everyone had a great day.
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